I have been waiting for this day for a couple weeks. I like IWSG. It makes me feel safe and unafraid of venting. That's not something I always feel. Often, I don't vent because I either A)Don't trust the person I'm talking to or B)Don't want the person I'm talking to to worry.
Now that IWSG is here, I'm not sure I want to talk. I wrote a post, getting into some of my insecurities and my struggle to find the energy and motivation to write.
Then I deleted it.
But sometimes, you don't want encouragement. You just want an ear to talk at or a shoulder to lean on. Someone to say, "Yeah, it sucks. I understand you." Or at least I do, and since I know most people's gut reaction is to help, I keep quiet. I don't want to hear that, you'll just guilt trip me so I'm just going to lie and say I'm tired.
So yeah, I'm having a hard time finding the motivation and energy to do anything writing related and I know of a bunch of reasons that are contributing to the lack of enthusiasm. I kind of want to talk about it, but I don't. In the end, I sit, silent and staring at my computer screen, and letting time waste.