Battling Cancer

1/22/2018

As you may know, this past Saturday my brother passed after a battle with cancer. The previous day I had posted for Celebrate the Small Things that he was still alive. He had been moved to hospice after most of the week in the ICU. I knew at any point, he could slip away, so each day he was still here was well worth celebrating. The chance of him recovering was nil, but I refused to let go of hope until the end.

It was a tricky balance: preparing for the worst while remaining hopeful. I'm still a little numb and last night I was really cursing my IC because I wanted some Rumchada. I think what hurts the worst is the idea that my parents now have to bury their child. It's supposed to be the other way around.

Honestly, I don't have much of a point here. It just felt too soon to be blogging like normal. I have to get back into the swing of things, but I also have to process and feel. Talking about it is part of that. Thanks for listening. <3

11 Comments

Cherie Reich link

1/22/2018 08:24:34 am

*hugs* I'm so sorry for your loss.

Alex J. Cavanaugh link

1/22/2018 08:36:40 am

Take all the time you need. Continued prayers for you and your family.

C. Lee McKenzie

1/22/2018 10:03:00 am

Oh, Patricia. I'm so sorry to read about your brother. How sad for you and your family. Thinking of you and understanding. These times are when we need to have those we love close, but I hope it helps to also know others are touched by your loss.

J E Oneil link

1/22/2018 01:08:44 pm

I'm so sorry for your loss. Lots of love for you and your family.

Liz A. link

1/22/2018 02:10:20 pm

I'm so sorry for your loss. Take care of yourself. This will be a hard time, so be kind to yourself through it. No worries if the blog goes away for a while. The blogosphere will still be here when you are ready to come back.

Jemima Pett link

1/23/2018 02:26:11 am

Lots of hugs. Take your time. As a wise person said to my brother and I after a bereavement - look after your physical health, look after your mental health, and look after the paperwork. Everything else can wait.

We'll be here when you're ready to come back. Oh, and your imagination will probably not fire for a bit, so don't fret about your writing goals.

lots of love

anna link

1/23/2018 06:38:46 am

Sending lots of hugs.

Diane Burton

1/23/2018 07:10:56 am

I am so sorry for your loss, Patricia. Although it probably doesn't feel like it now, remembering the good times will help ease the grief. Sending hugs and sympathy.