I tried to stay with that line of thinking for a long time after the idea to re-edit Snapshots entered my brain. No, I had to stick by it. It was done. No, no, no, no, NO!
A bad day is what it took to change my mind. A day where I thought I was the worst writer ever (and the worst person ever as well.) Why was I bothering? OMG I am an idiot! Click. Unpublished.
It was a liberating feeling.
But even then, when I was down in the dumps, I knew I was going to publish Snapshots again one day. There was no question. I really like the story and think it's interesting. I tried to do something a little different with a character who can see the future. Something besides "Oh noez, I saw the death of this person I love. I must do everything in my power to stop it and save them." I got to work, with no idea when I would hit publish again. Just the knowledge that it would happen.
It was terrifying.
What was I doing? What were people going to think? Would they be mad at me for flip flopping? I had no idea if there would be any backlash. Maybe someone would tear me a new one because I dared publish a book that obviously wasn't ready since I was re-editing it. But at the time, I had felt confident it was ready.
That was why I hit publish!
I try to spin this as a lesson learned. Other more experienced writers have always cautioned not to rush publishing. That's something I knew already, but this really drove the point in. Yes, most stories will never be perfect, there is always something more you can edit. But don't rush it. You will get there and the journey and waiting will be worth it.
Last year, I talked at Big Hair and Books about my characters' love lives.
Cyclop Blaine stands out in a crowd with his pale skin and mismatched eyes, but it’s his ability to see the future that really sets him apart. The unusual gift makes him an invaluable asset to Tyler, his adoptive father and leader of the Victory Street Gang. It also means Cyclop must hide what he can do from others. Once, a man he knew only as Master controlled him, using him for experiments. Cyclop has no desire to return to that life.
But he may have no choice. A man claiming ownership over him haunts his dreams and waking moments, leaving him no choice but to go back to the past he thought he had escaped. Cyclop must face this man, along with his past, if he wants to reveal his own future.